I decide to change your diaper first. I unzip your pajama. You start to fuss, I put your paci in, you shake your head back and forth rejecting the paci, this isn't what you want. "I know, I know, just one minute." I unzip your pajama your legs go shooting out, stretching stretching. I touch your foot; so soft. Your little little foot, but your little foot that seems too big for your body. I wonder if you are going to grow into it... I wonder if being born prematurely will set back how big you would have been. I always used to joke that we would have another boy and he would be the one to get my height. Now I worry it may have happened. I get your new diaper back on and swaddle or taco you-as we like to call it. Daddy is much better at wrapping you up, he has the tightest most secure tacos I have ever seen.
You lay in my lap rooting around like a little bird. I'm feeling fairly rested as you actually slept for more than two hours straight. You begin eating. I look down at your little face, your little nose. Your hand is wiggling and moving, fighting against the blanket; finally it's free. You lift your hand in the air stretching out each finger-victorious! Then slowly your hand relaxes and it comes to rest on my chest. I look at each finger, so perfect and small. I put my finger in your hand and you quickly grab on so tightly like you are never going to let go. I hope you never do. I know it will go fast... I look at your brother and sister and can hardly remember our sleepless nights together.
"I love you little man" I whisper. I try to picture you older, but I can't... I have never been able to imagine my kids at an older age.. part of living in the here and now I guess. But for that moment I figure it is better not to picture it; I just want to enjoy. Enjoy your little cry, your little feet and hands, enjoy the sleep deprivation and all it's insanity.
Because I know it will be all too soon and your feet will go from this...
to this.
Stay little, Little Man. I want to enjoy it.to this.See more great feet pictures over at Oswald's Cuties as part of Monday's Mugs.
Awww honey that is so sweeet! I love the story and the shot! Wow girl. I so remember those times...honestly I am glad to be done with that part..but love hearing about it all! Sweet little toes!
ReplyDeleteHugs, Sarah
very sweet post, i know what you mean.
ReplyDeleteTime is fleeting, but it's very clear to see that you are thoroughly enjoying those little feet while you have them.
ReplyDeleteTouching and wonderful post.
That was just too sweet, you're making me want another one. . . ;)
ReplyDeleteBeautifully written post and love those adorable little tootsies!!
ReplyDeleteI wish they would just listen to us and SLOW IT DOWN! I know I've said this before but i really miss nursing! I LOVED when Daisy would hold my hand while I nursed her! Sometimes she would try to hold my hand with her foot! LOL
ReplyDeleteThat was a REALLY fantastic foot post!
what a great post! so so soooo true! I never was able to see Lula Mae as a bigger kid either, and I haven't even tried with Jayce! I just want to soak in these sweet moments! enjoy that little man!
ReplyDeleteMy favorite picture of Avery is her tiny feet in my hand. His look tiny to me, but you think they are big. I guess I'm thinking of my biggest baby and his size twelves. Now that's big.
ReplyDeleteThat is soooo sweet!!
ReplyDeleteSo beautiful...makes me miss the breastfeeding days.
ReplyDeleteMy most favorite times with Ryan were when I nursed him. With Emily, I just don't remember much (sad but true) and with Kristin I was out of my mind. I am glad I was able to savor it more with Ry. You describe it beautifully.
ReplyDeleteI can't really relate to the breastfeeding days, but I will say this:
ReplyDeleteMy tacos were loose and sloppy. I was a failure as a father.
I have always loved nursing, even late at night.
ReplyDeleteEnjoy the moment.
Ok, my friend, you are seriously giving me baby fever with this post! Oh how I miss those middle of the night nursings (but not the lack of sleep!), the little baby legs stretching out, and the little baby birth mouth. So well written!
ReplyDeleteAnd I LOVE the pic of his baby feet, so precious!
*tear* Seriously, I know what you mean!
ReplyDeleteBEAUTIFULLY written my dear.
ReplyDeleteI just love this! I always loved breastfeeding. Well...once it wasn't my first one that is. That first kid, and the engorgement that accompanies it, is a doozy!
ReplyDeleteIt is funny, with my first baby I was so excited for each milestone to be reached. Now I want to stop time because there isn't enough of it. And those tiny and not so tiny feet are darling!
ReplyDeleteIt does all go by so fast! Love the pics!
ReplyDeleteI was up late, blog hopping and this made me cry. A lot. Hubby and I have been thinking about when to try for #2 and this just made me want another newborn soo much.
ReplyDeleteYou describe it so well. Such sweet, special time. All too fleeting. :(