Wednesday, August 22, 2012

Why I Let Myself Freeze

It's just Ryder and I for half of the day now.   Ryder has gotten pretty used to the routine of dropping and picking Lucas and Alex up, but some days he still cries.  He misses his brother and sister; the house is so much quieter when they are gone.

I have almost forgotten how to play with just one little one.   It seems easier and harder all at the same time.  He wants to drive trains on the Geo Trax and then the next minute is serving me play food from the little kitchen; definitely learned from his sister's influence.

While I am enjoying this time with just Ryder and I, it is also freaking me out as the reality of how quickly it goes is smacking me in the face.   And yet, I still find myself being distracted, finding distractions, not always enjoying the moments.

Some days I feel like I have to fight to bring myself into the present.

So yesterday when we were shopping and Ryder asked to "go cold part there" at Costco (basically a giant walk in fridge/freezer where a lot of produce is kept), even though it was out of our way, I said yes.

Why?

Because sometimes the cold truth and reality are our best wake up calls.
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22 comments:

  1. Awww, he is such a sweetie. Sometimes it's hard to just sit back and cherish these moments, they don't last long. I often long for the days when my kids were all little again...which is weird, because when they were little I couldn't wait for them to get bigger. Enjoy it :)

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  2. It's sad that sometimes he still cries when they leave. I'm glad you went to the freezer section with him!

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  3. It really does go so fast. Kristin is going to be driving/dating next year. She is 9 right? And Emily is in the 7th grade? Wait isn't she 7??? Yep, it goes fast.

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  4. Yes, time sure flies. I can't even imagine it ever going faster than it does now because it's going so fast, and yet, I have a feeling it will just keep going faster. Maybe I need a big fridge freezer to stand in too!

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  5. Time does go by too quickly! It is hard to always stay so in tune with the now.

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  6. Sometimes taking that little bit of time is hard when you know how much you have going on. But it's so worth it even if it's just walking through the cold section.

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  7. They grow so fast and it is hard to just enjoy the present...I'm trying to learn that too!

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  8. Soooo true! I have to smack myself in the head daily to stop looking to the future (or sometimes the past) and focus on now. Today I got all weepy when I looked at LInc and realized he looks like a little boy and no longer a baby. Ugh...why is time moving so fast!!

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  9. I hate the cold section in those stores!!! Brr!

    It does go REALLY quickly. I don't think I've ever asked - probably because it's none of my business - but is Ryder going to be your last?

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  10. I've been trying to do more of that too. It's easy to say "Oh, I need to put away the laundry, make dinner, etc" but when I stop and just enjoy the moment, I end up having a lot of fun. And I've discovered a lot of things about D that I didn't know before--like how she's figured out how to do certain things. I would've missed that if I didn't stop.

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  11. I've been very guilty of not cherishing moments lately, but recent events have really brought that home for me. Glad you froze!

    Sorry I haven't been around. I'm trying to get back to things now. I missed you!

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  12. School starts monday and I am longing for some of those quiet moments with all the big kids in school. Just remind me I said it in a month or two.

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  13. You are a sweet, sweet Mommy!

    Bring a sweater.

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  14. Totally true. It's hard.
    Also, my boys brought me toy food for the longest time!

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  15. I found myself slowing down and really cherishing everything with my youngest. I know it is the last time for every stage and it makes it so bittersweet.

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  16. I find when I just have one of my kids with me, I'm more likely to do those things that are out of the way and for no good reason other than my child wants to do it. :)

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  17. Such a good reminder! Especially to me, I only see mine every other weekend... Live in the present... keep reminding me of this please!?! I love that you took Ryder in there and I'm not sure of what this place is, of course we don't have a Costco so that could be part of my problem. Cute picture too!

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  18. Sweetie pie. He probably wanted to go in there partly because it reminds him of his sister and brother. So cute.

    And I hear you! It's just me and K right now and she misses the boys for sure sometimes!!

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