This Mother's Day Means More

With Mother's Day fast approaching, I couldn't help but stop and think about why I became a mother, how my roll of mother has evolved over the years.

This year feels like a big year in a lot of ways, not only will Eric and I have been married for 15 years, but this year will be a big transition year in my motherhood.

My oldest will be leaving the safety of elementary school and going to middle school; this terrifies me a bit.  I remember middle school, it is not years I would ever want to repeat.

My baby is about to finish kindergarten and go to first grade.

Right now I still feel like I have a one foot in both worlds, moms with little ones, versus the school moms; but next year when he is in school all day- that will change.  I suddenly won't be rushing to get things done before that 11:25 pick-up, but will have well into the afternoon.

It is exciting and terrifying all at the same time.  As a blogger who has shared about her kids, some since before they were born, it is also a transition as there are some things you pre-teens just don't want you sharing, some things I don't want to share about them.  We are leaving the world of make believe, dress-up and literally chasing a child, to a stage of after school activities, sports and a desire to spend time with friends.

As I posted earlier this week, the only thing consistent about motherhood is the change, as soon as you think you get it figured out things change and right now I feel like I am at a huge changing point.

I know it won't be my last, I can't even imagine how the change will feel when my oldest graduates high school or my baby leaves the home leaving us empty nesters.

I know I need to stop, I need to stop, slow down and try and process and enjoy it all as it is hurtling by so fast.

Motherhood is good, motherhood is hard, motherhood is full of unexpected highs and lows.  But it is beautiful and worth it.

This mother's day I will smile and love the presents and little gifts my kids give me, but I also may shed a tear or two knowing all too well how quickly it goes.

This Mother's Day might just mean a little more.